Monday, July 7, 2014

Googly Hair!!

I've been working on this post for over a month now. Life is so crazy busy!

I find myself constantly typing up these deep and meaningful things on social media, and deleting them before I could hit enter. I realized in the last few years that no one cares what I have to say to the world. I am just another person shouting into the void of the internet, wailing like an infant for attention. The universe is so big, and we all want it to pay attention to us, to make the world work in our favor, but the universe doesn't care. The universe is not in charge of putting two young lovers together any more than it is responsible for tearing them apart. It does not care about your existential crisis or your deadly illness. The universe just keeps doing its thing, and we are a side effect of the universe.

Of course I say this as I wipe buggers from the kid I'm watching's nose and shut the cabinet doors behind him.
This brings me to a good update! This summer I am a nanny for my best friend's older brother and sister-in-law. Andy and Tiffany have two adorable kids, 6 year old Eliana (Ellie) and 1 year old Kase. They make every day a lot of fun, a lot of work, and a lot louder than working at the store like I have the last two years. My days are spent wiping up messes, setting up sprinklers, and cleaning up the house after Ellie and the neighbor kids destroy it.

I'm taking summer classes. Well, I was. I dropped macroeconomics. Whatever in me said I could teach myself that stuff was crazy. I'm currently just taking Childhood through Adolescent Literature. So far we've read the Hunger Games books and Carbon Diaries 2015. They're all excellent books, but a novel a week on top of other things is just a lot to do.
School has always been a thing that overwhelms me. I can handle a lot, but apparently homework is not something I can handle. I get into this viscous cycle of sleeping when I'm stressed, then becoming stressed that I slept instead of dealing with the thing, then sleeping to cope with the things I need to do. Like I said, viscous cycle.

In other news, I've decided it's time to lose some weight. I'm the biggest I've ever been, and just all around unhappy about that. I have decided to try and lose 45 pounds by May 2015. It's a huge challenge for me, but I'm excited to start this journey. They always say, "Where would you be now if you started a year ago?" I'm tired of wondering this, it's time to find out!

Speaking of hair (I just picked this back up and reread the title), I have pink hair now! I went uptown to Janet at Janet's Family Hair Care and told her I wanted the brightest red she had.
First we bleached it


Then we colored it
And now it looks like this!
   
Which is a big change from this


So yeah. That's what's new with me and my life. 
Best Wishes!